I have never really been one to talk about myself (I know, that’s hard to believe after what I have written on here this month), but I find things have changed since I last really did or said anything about myself. Time has definitely passed, but I have changed. When I was younger, I gave the impression that I didn’t care…would have tattooed it on my face if I could have, but I really did care. Now, I have grown and find, looking back, how I just spent so much time around the wrong people. I am a humble person…not a self-hating one, or non-confident person (there isn’t anything I can’t do if I really want to), it’s just that others view being humble as a bad thing. I don’t. It is a positive trait. Writing has helped me see that I can be humble AND that some people actually do like what I write and say. I never mean to put anyone down…I never mean to put people’s ideas down. It’s not my place to do that. The last thing I ever thought I would enjoy, though, is opening myself up to people. Every time I have done that, it has been met with “that’s stupid” or “why would you like that” or any number of things. I expect that from my son, because we really do poke fun at each other, but he is not being mean about it (I know he still loves Hello, Dolly!…lol).
The Share Your World post is something that I really do look forward to each week. I haven’t been doing it long, I think this is my 2nd or 3rd post, but I enjoy sharing my world. I think in some ways because only those who are interested in me or what I can give (my stories and ideas) are here. Let’s face it, if you didn’t like what someone wrote, you probably wouldn’t read them again (I know I still cringe at thinking about picking up Stephen King again, even though I said I would give him a 2nd chance).
So, this week the questions are:
If you were to pack a basket for pinic lunch, what would be in your basket?
- I love hiking…not picnics, so if I were packing for a day hike to have lunch out by a waterfall (not that we have any in Kansas—ugh, I want to move so much), I would have granola, crackers, carrot sticks, and some left over chicken.
On a vacation what you would require in any place that you sleep?
- I haven’t had a vacation since 2010, when I took my son to Olympia, Washington and stopped off in Seattle and Bainbridge Island on the way home. I have lived in a tent at the KOA, a trailer in the woods, the basement of a building, in a hotel, and on the streets. The only thing I would require in any place that I sleep now, is a safe place for my son. His self-preservation skills are greatly lacking.
If you were to buy a new house/apartment what is the top three items on your wish list?
- I have been building my dream home in my head since I was a kid. It would be a three story Victorian with a window in the tower roof so I could sit and watch the night sky. A porch so I could sit and watch the grass and flowers grow. The last thing is a new addition to my dream house–my kid safe, sound, and happy. (Now if there was just a way to get that being unemployed, I’d be happy).
What did you appreciate or what made you smile this past week?
- Taking the plunge and putting a collection of my flash fiction and other short fiction up for sale on Amazon. It’s only 128 pages (50 stories) but I am out there for the world to love, like, hate, burn at the stake. I have gone from wanting to hide under a rock, to being okay with it, to being a little happy about it, to realizing that only 8 people want it even though I am giving it away for free today. It’s the last part that makes me smile the most, because for years I was afraid to put myself out there because of the past, when in reality, most people don’t care what I do. That’s not a bad thing…it’s liberating in a way. I can finally join the people that go shopping in their nightgowns (not really ever doing that though, but you get the idea).